Monsters
July 7, 2021She is light and colour
Until the sun sets
and she is full of monsters
Darkness
That only makes the coming day seem brighter
When she illuminates your world again
But the nights are getting longer
and you’re not sure you’ll see the sun again
each time she goes down on you
I wrote this poem about an abusive relationship. Meeting someone who seems perfect for you in every way and falling head over heels and then finding yourself in a dangerous situation. The dichotomy of them being the most incredible person you’ve ever met, and the scariest. They tear you down, just to be the one to build you back up again. And you let them, because you see so much good and beauty in them and you keep hoping things will get better. But the deeper you get, the worse the abuse becomes. Until you lose yourself and your grip on reality.
After writing the poem, I discovered an app for making music and inspiration struck. Within a few hours I completed the track and composed this video to go along with it. Finally, a sense of closure.
See this article for 64 signs of mental and emotional abuse:
https://www.healthline.com/health/signs-of-mental-abuse#accusing-blaming-and-denial
If you or someone you love may be in a similar situation, I encourage you to seek help. Find a counsellor or crisis support, tell someone in your life. Nobody deserves to be treated this way.